I trudge along, the route, towards normalcy; Hoping against hope, to find what I seek. A stash of implements, I carry, so delicately; Praying to effectuate the precise execution. For, the enervating cycle of illusory belief; Is a condemnation, in itself-- One, that I wish, to terminate, fully. Shall I find reprieve, shortly? The lengthy, winding road looks too much; It's been four weeks, three days already. A neverending loop, of mania, gains strength; Taunting me into a total rout. Yet, here I am, still essaying against myself; Endeavoring to regain the upper hand; Completely aware in the cognizance; That I am the captain of myself--no one else. For, no one else knows you better; other than yourself. #self #yqbaba