mom, it's been 3 months sense you been gone, and m

mom, it's been 3 months sense you been gone, and my heart will never move on, the heartache and hurt I feel everyday makes it impossible to get through the days. The holidays are here and its hard to bare because without you here it's not the same. I still remember it clear as day , when the family all gathered to paint for the day , the same day the good Lord took my step dad away, his last words he wispered please make sure your momma is ok. Your loving voice calling my name, and all those texts keep replaying in my brain. I still remember it clear as day, the memories we have, a billion more to be made, a billion we could not make. You were sick, weak, and would not feed. bottle after bottle is all you would drink , feeding tube leaked, and swollen at her feet, she felt the need to go be seen, waterman discharged her, weak as can be, she fell had a concussion and never.was.seen.. two days went by, and side by side we cried, hoping and praying for this all to pass by. eagerly she tried, not wanting to cry, she needed my help and wanted to die. momma your strong, daddy said it to, as long as you have me you will get through ! Barely able to walk, something was wrong I called the ambulance and they pushed her along, I follow behind, and once we arrived she could barely move, with tears in her eyes, all she could say was please have these nurses take this pain away, i cried and I cried and tried to hide, but the fear on Mama's eyes made me want to die..I held Mama's hand, and told her I tried, I tried everything to keep her alive..now your not hear, and I can't help but fear, the months and years without you here, I miss you so much and I need you here, but that star shining bright above me let's me know that your near. I love you so much. fly high mommy. #NojotoQuote ##3monthslater

Chapp Brooke