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Ramona Singh

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This week/month/year/ERA has been full of realisations. Lately, I realized I was bottling up even what I wanted to write. I wasn't saying what really I wanted to say, maybe because I feared that I wouldn't be able to say it the way I wanted to and if I really did, a thousand other people would be like, "same". Till this realisation, I was masking and encoding and covering up my mellow writing voice so that it doesn't sound like me. And one lesson I've learnt from practicing bottling up is that it seems like your bottle has a capacity, but it's actually a gas leak event. There are some other fears too eating my head from the back, but I hope that today or tomorrow or some other day, I'll open up the way I want to. Before it's too late to go back. AND DO YOU BELIEVE that I couldn't say what I wanted to say even in THIS ONE? It's internalized now. Shameful.

This week/month/year/ERA has been full of realisations. Lately, I realized I was bottling up even what I wanted to write. I wasn't saying what really I wanted to say, maybe because I feared that I wouldn't be able to say it the way I wanted to and if I really did, a thousand other people would be like, "same". Till this realisation, I was masking and encoding and covering up my mellow writing voice so that it doesn't sound like me. And one lesson I've learnt from practicing bottling up is that it seems like your bottle has a capacity, but it's actually a gas leak event. There are some other fears too eating my head from the back, but I hope that today or tomorrow or some other day, I'll open up the way I want to. Before it's too late to go back. AND DO YOU BELIEVE that I couldn't say what I wanted to say even in THIS ONE? It's internalized now. Shameful.